One of the pages on this site gives you a glimpse of the most recent incarnation (ie..fat) me. Up until this blog started, that was me, and that has been me several times before.
But there was another me too, and that is me I’m trying to get back (at least part of him, anyway, in some form).
That is me in August 2001, right before my senior year of high school (actually, technically it WAS my senior year of high school, but I skipped the first week for this vacation, WooT). I believe I was teetering between 175 and 180 pounds then. I was upwards of 250 throughout middle school, and right before freshman year of high school I resolved to lose the weight, and I did, that I kept it off throughout high school. I may not have always done it the safest way (I had ALOT of very low-cal days), but I did it, and I kept it off. About a year after this pic I had started to pack the weight back on.
The above pics of other thin me’s throughout the past few years. I believe the top two are between 2000 (top left is with my sister Katie) and 2002 (top right I’m holding my brother Patrick), and the bottom two are from 2007. These thin mes were accomplished with a variety of diet and exercise (I was doing it right sometimes, at least for a little while), fasting, extreme lowcal diets, pills, basically most of the nasty stuff. I weighed anywhere between 175 and 210-215.
Anyway, this right here is probably the most depressing of anything, a tuxedo’d version of me in 2002 (prom), and the tuxedo’d version of me this past August (a friends wedding).
Disgusting, right?
I have been thin for one period of time or another in 1998-2002 (the longest stretch), 2004, mid 2006-late 2007 and early 2008. It’s been downhill (the up-waistline) since, brought on by one reason or another.
Now, I will admit that some of the pictures are pretty old, and I have people tell me often that I cannot expect to look like what I did in high school. Why not? I’m only 25 years old, I personally do not think its completely unreasonable. Of course there will be some differences (I am getting older, I hate it, but I am well aware of it), but I can still strive for that overall, right?
Thin Steve is making a comeback. It isn’t going to just be about him being thin though, he is going to be stronger, healthier, more confident, and overall a better person than ANY of his previous incarnations.
And he is going to stay this time…for good.
He’s happy to be coming home.
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I love your motivation. You can do it, if you’ve done it before! And this time, since you’re going about it a more healthier way, maybe it will be for good! That’s what I’m hoping for both of us!
You are just as handsome now as you were then pal! Please don’t be so hard on yourself. You are not disgusting. I don’t ever want to hear (read) that again!!!! You are motivated to make change, and that is what is going to be the sticking point for you. It’s not just about losing the weight any means necessary, it’s about changing your life. You can and ARE doing it, I hope you see that. Sometimes I get hung up on trying to be my skinny 23 year old self, and realize I can’t chase that dream any longer. Even if I get that weight I will never look that young and vibrant. I will just look vibrant. Ha! I am proud that @25 you are making the choice to gain control of your health. I wish I could slap the shit out of my 25 year old self and tell her to get it together. Because I didn’t get the epiphany you are having now until I was almost 30. All those wasted years! Embrace your youth and embrace your fast metabolism!
You will succeed!!
P.S. What is the age difference of you and your siblings??? DANG!!!
Thanks, Jessie
It’s just hard sometimes to see the old pictures, and the closet full of smaller clothes. Why did I let myself get to this point, repeatedly?! It’s rediculous sometimes, but it is changing, and I am changing 
And…::: deep breath :::
I am 25, my youngest sibling (Patrick) is 7 now. There are 9 of us total. 7 boys, 2 girls.