So as I said yesterday, I have gained almost everything back.

I’d be more upset if the scale wasn’t in the 260s just a few days before, so progress is being made on this end. WooT!

But seriously, what the f*ck happened?  I was never doing super great, as the weight loss has been pretty slow going, but an almost 30lb gain?

Seriously, wtf?

Diet:

 This is taken directly from my “The Old Me” page:

“I am a guy who orders a large meal at McDonalds, and a few things off of the dollar menu to boot.
I am a guy who can eat an entire pizza in one sitting, and still want more later…
…same with a bucket of fried chicken.
I am a guy who can eat and entire greasy appetizer at a restaurant, along with the full meal, and a dessert.”

Well, that guy wasn’t so much the Old Me as it was the Still Very Much Exists Me, because I revisited those old habits…hard.  Since I started working from home I had no issue making a quick McDonalds run, or ordering from Domino’s (or Pizza Hut, or Papa Johns, pick your poison).  I have yet to eat a whole bucket of fried chicken, but still…the rest of it is bad enough.  And when I go out it’s been more of the same…appetizer, full entree, dessert (maybe)…stop at the gas station on the way home for a candy bar.

Through all of this I know I was hardly ever hungry…and I wasn’t even “just eating”…I was gorging.  I don’t want to say I didn’t care about losing weight, but I definitely wasn’t thinking a whole lot about it.

Exercise:

To look at my Dailymile training profile is to see a pretty sad sight. 

70 miles ran in April? Awesome!  39 in May?  Eh…not too shabby.

14 in June? Wait…what?!  17 in July?  Yeah, still kind of sucky.

And that doesn’t mean my running gave way to other forms of exercise. No, pretty much everything went into the shitter. 

I’m trying to make up for it now, but the damage is present.  My endurance is shot, my runs are slow, my recent workouts have been all around craptastic.

So what in the hell are you doing to do about it?

Honestly, I’m still trying to figure that out.  A lot of you have said I’ve done it before, so go back to doing that other stuff.  That’s great to an extent, but even my “before” was kind of lackluster.  While my workouts may been good, my diet has really always sucked, just not as bad as it has sucked recently.

Still though, I know what to do.  But “knowing” and “doing” are two completely different things.  I’m on the right track though, I think.  My meals the past few days have been good to moderate, and I think the “trying out raw” has helped with that.  I’m not doing a full raw diet , but what I’ve been eating has been a lot healthier and a lot more filling.  I’m also fighting temptations, drinking a shit-ton of water (and still SOME Diet Coke, full disclosure) and actually looking forward to trying out healthy recipes (which I’ll try to post too).

Exercisically (new word FTW!) speaking, I’m just trying to get back into it.  The Awesome Workout Challenge has helped A LOT, so thanks again for you all who helped out with that.  But other than that, I’m looking forward to going on runs, even if I’m not 100% with my current times.  I haven’t gotten back into any sort of real strength training, but I am getting there.

In conclusion…

So yeah, I rambled, but I think I’ve just about put everything out there.  I’m sure other issues will come up, or will be brought to my attention though, and I’ll be sure to try to put them out there.  I haven’t gained anything from hiding, so I don’t think I would now.

And…that’s it (for now).  Thanks for reading, and have a good day!

Today was the first experience at a Farmers Market.

I was expecting this huge outdoor marketplace, with all sorts of farmers and all sorts of goodies.

I got this.

To the defense of the farmers, it was crappy weather, so I’m not sure if there are usually are more vendors, but since the whole set up takes place at a small parking lot, I have a feeling that this is usually it. 

The stuff that was there looked really good, but I didn’t end up getting any fruits or vegetables.  I bought a loaf of orange/cranberry/pecan bread, and my roommate ended up buying a jar of honey.

We then ended up spending a crapload of money at Wegmans!  My roommate wants to try going on a raw food diet (and may start blogging about it, so stay tuned) so we were looking for stuff for that.  I told him I’d support him and try it part time.  It’ll allow for a nice change of pace with the diet, and will give me an opportunity to possibly try some new stuff.  We’ll see how that goes…

I did find one thing at the Farmers Market that was pretty awesome, or one on the building adjacent to it.

TRIFORCE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hope everyone has had a great weekend!

Source 

Emotional
Stress
Boredom

You could basically fit any of those words (and probably a few more) into the title of this post, and you’ll have my eating habits for the past two months.

Now, I’m not trying to dwell on what I’ve done wrong before, but I sorta have to acknowledge it if I want to be able to move forward.

Things started going to crap when I began working from home.  I was suddenly thrown into a situation with no structure, and while I didn’t have alot of food in the house, I’d get bored and eat anything I could, or I would order delivery or hop in the car and head over to McDonalds or Wendys.  If these were my meals, it probably wouldn’t have been so bad, but this was a fairly constant thing throughout the day.  I also grew less interested in cooking, so almost every meal was eaten out, with little regard to healthy choices.

I resolved to do better in June, but that was a joke.  I housesat for my aunt for two weeks, in a house FILLED TO THE BRIM with all sorts of food, and I basically had at it.  I wasn’t eating out as much, but I was making up for it by eating all sorts of shit otherwise.

At the end of June I was on vacation in Winnipeg, Canada.  Again, lots and lots of eating out.  My only real saving grace there was that most of the eating was at actual meal times, there was very little snacking in between.

I don’t know why I get like that.  If I get upset at anything, I eat.  If I am stressed or bored, I eat.  If I have a craving for the slightest little thing, I eat.  If I try to allow myself one cheat meal, that basically gives way to a cheat day, which can give way to a cheat week, etc…

It sucks, and it sucks worse in that after I’ve eaten, I have very little motivation to do much else.  I just want to veg, so my workouts go out the window.  I workout a lot better on an empty, or near empty stomach, and over these past couple months having a empty or near empty stomach was a rarity.

But…hopefully that is all in the past, and I will get back on track.  Hopefully maybe even better than before, because the diet is something I’ve always struggled with to an extent.  I’m just not sure as to the best way to go about it.  I’ve tried counting calories before, and that lasted maybe a week.  I’ve tried meal tracking on Sparkpeople and Diet.com too, but quickly lost interest there as well.  Hell, the only reason I set up a twitter account was to tweet my meals, but that didn’t last long either.  I don’t know why it gets like that, especially I have no problem tracking each and every workout on Dailymile.

Blarg…I don’t know.  I was thinking about Weight Watchers for Men, but I don’t want to pay for something I’m going to end up not using.  I could just strive to eat healthy and not keep track of anything, too.  I know that works for alot of people, but I’ve been surprised in the past at how bad my “healthy” eating could be.

I’m rambling, so I’m going to shut up now.  I know something needs to be done, so it will, even if it means revisiting some old tools I tried to use in the past.  In the meantime, any thoughts or advice would be greatly appreciated  

Have a great day!