Hello, and happy July 4th everyone!

Alot of pretty awesome things have happened on this day throughout history, The Declaration of Independence was signed, Alice in Wonderland was published, Will Smith and Jeff Goldblum helped defeat the alien invasion…

…and I have decided to get my life back…

…again.

For those of you who follow my blog, you know it’s been a pretty rough couple of months.  I resolved to make things better come June, but in the end that didn’t really amount of anything.  While I did have some great times these past couple months, and I accomplished A LOT, I’m afraid I’ve just about gained back almost all of the weight I’ve lost since the beginning (will post the official weight on Tuesday though, as always).

I’m ashamed of that, but I don’t want to dwell on it, and I’d like very much to move forward.  For the past few months I let emotional/boredom/stress eating get the best of me, and overall I did very little as far as working out goes.

But that ends today.  I am declaring my independence from obesity (corny, but go with it) and I am getting my life back.

WooT!

Regular weigh ins will be coming back on Tuesdays (no skipping), and I will be doing more with weekly goals for myself.  I also need to think about my overall goals and what I’d ultimately like to see come out of my life.  It won’t be easy (it never is), and I will probably still have slip ups, but hopefully this time around they won’t knock me completely off track. 

So stay tuned…

I think it’s pretty safe to say that I have become a broken record.

I’ve been struggling…honestly, part of me can’t say it’s been a struggle, because in many ways it seems like I haven’t even be trying.

The end goal is in the back of my mind…it’s in the back of my mind when I don’t go to the gym…it’s in the back of my mind when I stuff myself during the day out of boredom…it’s in the back of my mind when I basically do everything that I know I shouldn’t be doing right now.

Ugh.

I’ve made big claims about getting back on track, hitting the reset button, working out everyday, and all that jazz…but honestly, I’m going nowhere fast.

You’ve all been super encouraging and completely awesome, but I haven’t taken up any of your advice, I haven’t responded to your offers of help, I have been bad about emails, I have been bad about twitter.  I’m sorry for all of that.  I love and appreciate all of you and everything you have done for me…I just, don’t know

And yeah, I mean, I HAVE been busy.  Work, school and the like, but those issues were always there and I still managed to at least kick some ass, but now I’ve let it all overwhelm me.

I want to scream, but more than that I want to get on track.  I want to stop making empty promises and actually do this thing.  I want to learn from my failures and move on, and not allow them to overwhelm me. 

I wish I could say that this post would serve as a catalyst to that change, but honestly, the post few posts were suppose to serve as that catalyst.  So yeah, there’s that.

Oh yeah, there is supposed to be a Status Report this week, but honestly, I don’t want to know.

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There is SOME good to report though…I turned 26 last Friday, and I had a really nice birthday.  I hung out with some friends, saw Iron Man 2, and got a huge Best Buy giftcard which went towards the purchase of a Xbox 360 and Final Fantasy XIII. WooT!

I’m also fully intending on keeping with the Maryland Half Marathon this weekend.  My motivation may be in the shitter, but I have (and never had) any intention of calling it quits on that.

Sorry for the rambling.  Hope you have a good day.

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And by the way, this post in entirely thanks to MrsFatass…if it wasn’t for her I would have probably stayed under my rock until I had something better to report.  Thank you for making me put myself out there

I’m still alive…

…and still trying to get back on track.

It’s been a few days, and I apologize for that.  It’s not that I’m deliberately trying to avoid the blog.  It’s more a combination of being busy with work, being busy with schoolwork (apparently self paced means I still have to do the work at some point, DAMMIT!), and not knowing what to talk about, at least in a coherant way (bullet points wouldn’t be much help either).

So yeah, there is that.  I’m working out, and the diet is slightly better.  I’m not going to go and say I’m back yet, but I’m getting there.  Your regularly scheduled Steve will be back soon

In the meantime, how in the hell are ya?!

And thank you for the encouragement, advice, etc…you gave with the weigh in post.  I’ve said it before, but I can never say it enough, you guys rock!

Peace!