So as I said yesterday, I have gained almost everything back.

I’d be more upset if the scale wasn’t in the 260s just a few days before, so progress is being made on this end. WooT!

But seriously, what the f*ck happened?  I was never doing super great, as the weight loss has been pretty slow going, but an almost 30lb gain?

Seriously, wtf?

Diet:

 This is taken directly from my “The Old Me” page:

“I am a guy who orders a large meal at McDonalds, and a few things off of the dollar menu to boot.
I am a guy who can eat an entire pizza in one sitting, and still want more later…
…same with a bucket of fried chicken.
I am a guy who can eat and entire greasy appetizer at a restaurant, along with the full meal, and a dessert.”

Well, that guy wasn’t so much the Old Me as it was the Still Very Much Exists Me, because I revisited those old habits…hard.  Since I started working from home I had no issue making a quick McDonalds run, or ordering from Domino’s (or Pizza Hut, or Papa Johns, pick your poison).  I have yet to eat a whole bucket of fried chicken, but still…the rest of it is bad enough.  And when I go out it’s been more of the same…appetizer, full entree, dessert (maybe)…stop at the gas station on the way home for a candy bar.

Through all of this I know I was hardly ever hungry…and I wasn’t even “just eating”…I was gorging.  I don’t want to say I didn’t care about losing weight, but I definitely wasn’t thinking a whole lot about it.

Exercise:

To look at my Dailymile training profile is to see a pretty sad sight. 

70 miles ran in April? Awesome!  39 in May?  Eh…not too shabby.

14 in June? Wait…what?!  17 in July?  Yeah, still kind of sucky.

And that doesn’t mean my running gave way to other forms of exercise. No, pretty much everything went into the shitter. 

I’m trying to make up for it now, but the damage is present.  My endurance is shot, my runs are slow, my recent workouts have been all around craptastic.

So what in the hell are you doing to do about it?

Honestly, I’m still trying to figure that out.  A lot of you have said I’ve done it before, so go back to doing that other stuff.  That’s great to an extent, but even my “before” was kind of lackluster.  While my workouts may been good, my diet has really always sucked, just not as bad as it has sucked recently.

Still though, I know what to do.  But “knowing” and “doing” are two completely different things.  I’m on the right track though, I think.  My meals the past few days have been good to moderate, and I think the “trying out raw” has helped with that.  I’m not doing a full raw diet , but what I’ve been eating has been a lot healthier and a lot more filling.  I’m also fighting temptations, drinking a shit-ton of water (and still SOME Diet Coke, full disclosure) and actually looking forward to trying out healthy recipes (which I’ll try to post too).

Exercisically (new word FTW!) speaking, I’m just trying to get back into it.  The Awesome Workout Challenge has helped A LOT, so thanks again for you all who helped out with that.  But other than that, I’m looking forward to going on runs, even if I’m not 100% with my current times.  I haven’t gotten back into any sort of real strength training, but I am getting there.

In conclusion…

So yeah, I rambled, but I think I’ve just about put everything out there.  I’m sure other issues will come up, or will be brought to my attention though, and I’ll be sure to try to put them out there.  I haven’t gained anything from hiding, so I don’t think I would now.

And…that’s it (for now).  Thanks for reading, and have a good day!

Hello, and happy July 4th everyone!

Alot of pretty awesome things have happened on this day throughout history, The Declaration of Independence was signed, Alice in Wonderland was published, Will Smith and Jeff Goldblum helped defeat the alien invasion…

…and I have decided to get my life back…

…again.

For those of you who follow my blog, you know it’s been a pretty rough couple of months.  I resolved to make things better come June, but in the end that didn’t really amount of anything.  While I did have some great times these past couple months, and I accomplished A LOT, I’m afraid I’ve just about gained back almost all of the weight I’ve lost since the beginning (will post the official weight on Tuesday though, as always).

I’m ashamed of that, but I don’t want to dwell on it, and I’d like very much to move forward.  For the past few months I let emotional/boredom/stress eating get the best of me, and overall I did very little as far as working out goes.

But that ends today.  I am declaring my independence from obesity (corny, but go with it) and I am getting my life back.

WooT!

Regular weigh ins will be coming back on Tuesdays (no skipping), and I will be doing more with weekly goals for myself.  I also need to think about my overall goals and what I’d ultimately like to see come out of my life.  It won’t be easy (it never is), and I will probably still have slip ups, but hopefully this time around they won’t knock me completely off track. 

So stay tuned…

I think it’s pretty safe to say that I have become a broken record.

I’ve been struggling…honestly, part of me can’t say it’s been a struggle, because in many ways it seems like I haven’t even be trying.

The end goal is in the back of my mind…it’s in the back of my mind when I don’t go to the gym…it’s in the back of my mind when I stuff myself during the day out of boredom…it’s in the back of my mind when I basically do everything that I know I shouldn’t be doing right now.

Ugh.

I’ve made big claims about getting back on track, hitting the reset button, working out everyday, and all that jazz…but honestly, I’m going nowhere fast.

You’ve all been super encouraging and completely awesome, but I haven’t taken up any of your advice, I haven’t responded to your offers of help, I have been bad about emails, I have been bad about twitter.  I’m sorry for all of that.  I love and appreciate all of you and everything you have done for me…I just, don’t know

And yeah, I mean, I HAVE been busy.  Work, school and the like, but those issues were always there and I still managed to at least kick some ass, but now I’ve let it all overwhelm me.

I want to scream, but more than that I want to get on track.  I want to stop making empty promises and actually do this thing.  I want to learn from my failures and move on, and not allow them to overwhelm me. 

I wish I could say that this post would serve as a catalyst to that change, but honestly, the post few posts were suppose to serve as that catalyst.  So yeah, there’s that.

Oh yeah, there is supposed to be a Status Report this week, but honestly, I don’t want to know.

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There is SOME good to report though…I turned 26 last Friday, and I had a really nice birthday.  I hung out with some friends, saw Iron Man 2, and got a huge Best Buy giftcard which went towards the purchase of a Xbox 360 and Final Fantasy XIII. WooT!

I’m also fully intending on keeping with the Maryland Half Marathon this weekend.  My motivation may be in the shitter, but I have (and never had) any intention of calling it quits on that.

Sorry for the rambling.  Hope you have a good day.

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And by the way, this post in entirely thanks to MrsFatass…if it wasn’t for her I would have probably stayed under my rock until I had something better to report.  Thank you for making me put myself out there