One of the pages on this site gives you a glimpse of the most recent incarnation (ie..fat) me.  Up until this blog started, that was me, and that has been me several times before.

But there was another me too, and that is me I’m trying to get back (at least part of him, anyway, in some form).

That is me in August 2001, right before my senior year of high school (actually, technically it WAS my senior year of high school, but I skipped the first week for this vacation, WooT).  I believe I was teetering between 175 and 180 pounds then.  I was upwards of 250 throughout middle school, and right before freshman year of high school I resolved to lose the weight, and I did, that I kept it off throughout high school.  I may not have always done it the safest way (I had ALOT of very low-cal days), but I did it, and I kept it off.  About a year after this pic I had started to pack the weight back on.

The above pics of other thin me’s throughout the past few years.  I believe the top two are between 2000 (top left is with my sister Katie) and 2002 (top right I’m holding my brother Patrick), and the bottom two are from 2007.  These thin mes were accomplished with a variety of diet and exercise (I was doing it right sometimes, at least for a little while), fasting, extreme lowcal diets, pills, basically most of the nasty stuff.  I weighed anywhere between 175 and 210-215.

Anyway, this right here is probably the most depressing of anything, a tuxedo’d version of me in 2002 (prom), and the tuxedo’d version of me this past August (a friends wedding).

Disgusting, right?

I have been thin for one period of time or another in 1998-2002 (the longest stretch), 2004, mid 2006-late 2007 and early 2008.  It’s been downhill (the up-waistline) since, brought on by one reason or another.

Now, I will admit that some of the pictures are pretty old, and I have people tell me often that I cannot expect to look like what I did in high school.  Why not?  I’m only 25 years old, I personally do not think its completely unreasonable.  Of course there will be some differences (I am getting older, I hate it, but I am well aware of it), but I can still strive for that overall, right?

Thin Steve is making a comeback.  It isn’t going to just be about him being thin though, he is going to be stronger, healthier, more confident, and overall a better person than ANY of his previous incarnations.

And he is going to stay this time…for good.

He’s happy to be coming home.

Hello

By coming to this site, you have taken your first steps to a larger world.

Okay, well, maybe not so much a larger world, as to one of a smaller me.

My name is Steve, I am 25 years old, and at 265 pounds, I am what one may call obese (although I prefer the more technical term: fatass).

I have struggled with my weight since I was little kid (when I found the Little Debbie stash) and continue to do so up until this day.  I have not always been fat, no, my experience has been more of a yo-yo.  I gain weight, I lose it, I gain it back, I lose it again.  I have gone from 170 pounds to my current (and highest) weight of 265.  It’s a vicious cycle, one that I feel is coming to an end…

…a) because I’m sick of the cycle and want to change for good, and b) because I am having a helluva time losing it now!

That is where you come in. I have stolen the idea recieved inspiration from alot of different bloggers out there, who are putting their experiences and themselves out there on the table.  They do this not only to tell their story and to maybe inspire one or two (or a million) people, but to also hold themselves accountable to their friends, family, and the entire world.

I hope to use this as a chronicle of my own ups and downs, to maybe give my own little bit of hope to those who are struggling with these same issues, and to have same accountability.  I have started, and given up on far too many things in my life.  Today is the day that changes, I hope this blog will become the beginnings of my new life.

So I hope you’ll keep reading, and enjoy the ride.  I promise to make things as interesting as I can, and I won’t let you down.

Let the games begin!