First off, I hope everyone had a great weekend.

Secondly, so as you can tell from my last post I had a bit of weak moment (not the first one, unfortunately)…and I broke down and bought some diet pills.

I haven’t taken them…

…and I am NOT going to take them.

I was hesitant to buy them in the first place, but I was trying to tell myself that it would only be temporary, and that it would only help jumpstart the diet and weightloss.

That was a crock of shit though.  It was shortcut, a “cheat”, there really isn’t any other way around that.  I know I don’t need that, and I know that I am better than that.  So we’ll going to keep going, and do this the right way

I want to thank you all for the encouragement, support, and the much needed ass kicking, whether it be in the comments, the email, on twitter, or in a few cases via text message.  I often wonder why you guys stick around and support me, especially since I haven’t really gotten anywhere in the past couple months, but it’s awesome that you have in fact stuck around, so thank you

In the meantime, the Hydroxycut sits on the table, still in the WalMart bag.    I’ll post a picture of the return receipt once I get back to the store

So I’ve talked of the reset, of starting fresh in June and all that, but the struggle hasn’t left me completely.

It’s my diet.

The same thing I’ve been struggling with from the very first day.  Since the beginning, I’ve had good stretches, but then I’d falter, then I’d do good again.  I’ve made plans to diet, calorie count, track my meals, etc…etc…but none of them have really gained any ground.

It’s frustrating, because during previous weight loss efforts the diet came fairly easily…but I really wasn’t doing it “the right way” as those previous efforts were extremely lowcal.

With that said, I kinda sorta gave into weakness today, and bought something that I’m hoping might help…

Hydroxycut.

When I started my journey, I told myself, and I told all of you that I wasn’t going to use diet pills.  I’ve tried them before, with limited success, and sometimes really weird side effects (I took dexatrim for awhile and had neon yellow pee).  Still though, I feel like I need to try something, even if its only temporary and to jumpstart thing.

I haven’t started taking it yet, and I’m really not even proud that I bought it.  I was fully intending to take it but not talk about it, but I felt that would be deceptive.

Ugh…I don’t know what to do.  I know I shouldn’t, and I know they can have some negative effects, but it’s like my desire to see something happen is overriding my better judgement…but this desire doesn’t seem to be enough to propel me to do anything on my own, which is REALLY frustrating. Boo!

Do any of you use anything (like diet pills, or whatever) to help you out?  What do YOU do to keep your diet on track?  Any and all help would be appreciated.